r e d.chilipepper

oh how fun!

i logged into blogging today and saw that someone had left a comment about black gay anal f*cking. oh pleasant. oh why thank you! and i very much appreciate the recent endless im'ing from people wanting to send me porn links. i wrote one back a nasty IM message, and then blocked her or him or, if you want some help, Anika 439. even tho the computer probably can't understand my IM, i felt a strange sense of satisfaction.

with bf's help, i found a decent mountain bike. he took me on my beginner's ride, which promptly kicked my ass. did i enjoy the flies hovering above horse poop? no, especially not when i rode into the mass with my open panting mouth. did i enjoy his "little climbs" which turned out to be mountainous hills? no, not really. did i enjoy the bug that flew into my eye? nope. that wasn't so much fun either. did i like the fact that the seat dug firmly into my butt, so much so that i couldn't walk very well today? hrm... guess that's a no, too.

it wasn't immediately a favorite thing, but i figure it will grow on me. i like being outside, and i like a challenge, both of which mountain biking offers me. and there is nothing better than taking a day's aggression out on a personal goal. so here i go. i am now a snowboarder and a mountain biker. i have more hiking and camping gear than i never thought i would possess. i even own a headlamp (justified by the fact that i am a super klutz who tends to walk into objects in broad daylight). i am becoming the female version of my boyfriend. that is scary.

nonetheless, we're headed to yosemite for another tree-hugging, bug-loving weekend. i eagerly look forward to the 6 am rising, brushing my teeth over the smoke pit, and burnt corn. i hope everyone has a great long weekend. i'm sure we all need it.

relaxation.. and relief

so, i'm back early. i was feeling a little frazzled a few weeks back, so i decided to do what was most simple -- i just dropped obligations. set an early date back from italy. became a master of wicked delegation at work. stopped working the graveyard shift. i also started eating large amounts of applies in the afternoon, fought my caffeine urge. now, a few weeks later, a good dose of time with bf, plus yesterday's set of 50-lb squats, i'm feeling much better. a few commentaries, tho, to ring in my return with extra bam:

1. are individuals with fobby asian accents deemed to be low class because it phonetically sounds low class or did the stereotype of fobbish, awkward asians get reinforced to that accent? which came first? why are european accents so glamorous and attractive?

2. after some strange occurences of disagreements over truths and nontruths in the lives of those around me, and after a firsthand witnessesing of the angst that comes about when an individual isn't capable of communicating his feelings, i've been recently motivated to be honest, and very honest. we spend so much of our time dancing around the truth and when we finally do speak, we like to paint such happy pictures of things, so much so that we veer away from negative feelings, even if they are real, because we're afraid of being rejected, disliked, scorned. but i find that most people are receptive to feelings, positive OR negative, just as long as you speak honestly and sincerely. and strangely enough, when you do so, even if others react negatively, you don't feel guilt or worry over what you did. because you acted earnestly.

3. there's a few pages in siddartha by herman hesse about an analogy between life and a river. read it.

4. i've decided not to vote for any candidate who uses mudslinging techniques to further his campaign. i hate it when people get ahead by cutting others down. shouldn't your righteous actions speak loudly enough for themselves? and then i realized that if i did this, i wouldn't be able to vote for any of the major california candidates for governor. you people suck. stop cutting each other down. i would be ashamed to have any of you as a role model and leader given your recent behavior. gross.

5. i'm looking for a mountain bike. i intend to take down some of the trails in this area and start training for one of the triathalons. should be good fun.

imma going into hibernation

see ya' around folks. i'm going into hiatus for a while to get some r&r. will be back after my trip to italy in june.

A race to the finish

bf, marshy, and seb did the short course triathalon this weekend at wildflower. i was supposed to participate too, but given my proclivity for hurting myself, had to withdraw.

nonetheless, as the day turned gorgeous, the park became filled with athletes, spectators, most of whom were just simply beautiful people, no less. we'd never seen more beautiful bodies congregated in one place than at that wildflower. i almost had to mop the drool off of my chin. i found myself coveting the calves and the biceps of everyone there...

in the end, my companions finished remarkably well (marshy had 7:45 minute splits, and bf is an insanely fast swimmer, that fiend), and i was inspired to join them on the next few. now, if only i could remember how to swim. it's been 10 years since i passed my swimming test at mit! sigh...

conversation in lab today

ra: hey rcp, everytime we come to your lab we're so jealous of your windows.
rcp: really? you guys don't have windows over there?
ra: no.. not at all.
rcp: so what do you use? unix? i mean, really, you shouldn't be jealous of windows. it sucks. it crashes all the time. there ain't no love for windows.
ra: no, not Windows as in the os. windows, as in things you look out of?
rcp: oooh.. i'm such a nerd.

if i ruled the world

i'm idlying away at work today, and decided to blog. if i ruled the world, this is what i would do:

1. beat all the fools of the world with my stupid stick as much as i wanted, when i wanted. i have a subset that i am ready to test my stupid stick out on.
2. there would be no raw onions in tuna salad. or in or on anything, for that matter.
3. beam myself anywhere in the world, instantaneously, and bring whomever i wanted.
4. exercise mind control and tell the stupid people who haven't been subjected to my stupid stick to shut up.
5. erase dubya. ugh. he makes me sicker than eating too much tuna salad.
6. create a carbohydrate that had no calories but still tasted like bread. chocolate would be infinitely good for me, so that i could consume no end to it.
7. i'd invent and patent a food synthesizer and sell it to rich people at 10 million percent markup so that i could donate it to the poor.

ohhh gawdd... i'm sooo bored today and so annoyed at stupid people.