happy holidays!
i haven't posted in ages, but i just wanted to wish everyone a wonderful holiday season. it's amazing - this christmas was the whitest christmas that i can ever recall. the grounded was blanketed in several inches of thick, white fluffly snow, and it made the world appear a neon blue as the sun was setting. i think i am very happy this holiday season, despite some of the sad things that have happened this year. i haven't made any new year resolutions, simply because i do not believe in them. if one is to effect change, why wait for a specific date to start? today is as good a day as any. and so i think i have tried to make resolutions along the way, and i have tried hard to keep them.
tonight i went to see charles dicken's a christmas carol. i needn't recount the story, because i am sure that everyone is aware of the tale of ebenezer scrooge's woe and greediness, and how it brought much sadness into his life, although he did not realize it. of course, the story brings with it the moral that change can never occur too late, that there is salvation in each of us, that happiness and good will prevail in the end. for some reason, it made me think about fate, and how people sometimes say, "if it is meant to be, it will be." but that makes me wonder, how much is really meant to be because we make it so? one of my best friends from high school always said to me, "go with the flow." but then, what exactly is the flow, and how does one know when to fight circumstances or when to accept them? it seems to me that the line between complacency and persistence is very thin. any answers? this often befuddles me.
i had a severely nasty week. i think i clocked 70 hours, managed to get my grad school applications out (yes, to berkeley and stanford), didn't sleep very much. i don't know what it is with my job, except that sometimes, work just seems to hit so hard, that there is no end to it. i can literally spend an entire day not doing anything but just going from one paper to one patent to another paper to another patent. don't get me wrong, i love being busy. except i just don't understand why it never evens itself out... why there can't be equal distribution? i guess it's just the luck of the draw, the dilbert phenomenon.
so i went to the top of the hub for the first time ever this week. it's really pretty.. especially since we picked a clear night to go, when it wasn't too busy. it's so nice having time and money to spend, (or what little i have of it when i'm not working), and i think going back to school will be a bit of an adjustment for me.
so this a very pointless blog. i spent most of my week overphilosophizing so i'm suffering from an immense brain overload. and can't write much of sustenance today... so i suppose this is it for today =)
okay.
i'm dumb.
i know i can't drink caffeine and i still do. the stuff makes me go crazy. i think weird things. go hyperbrain.
new year's resolution - stop drinking coffee.
so beckfat made up a new word: "**bulation". stan caught wind of it. and
wanted to know what it meant. herein i include her definition (credit to beckfationary):
hm...the process of inventing a catchy new term is tricky, and is a big
responsibility...I'm shaping the future of the english language. hm...
to **bulate: if applied to rcp, it means to engage in any of the
various behaviors associated with rcp that give her that
special...something. if applied to friends/associates/relatives of rcp,
it means to imitate said behaviors.
**bulation: the noun form of the above verb meanings. also, the effect
that is produced on others by rcp behaviors.
1) (after rcp has done a little booty dance in a store or some other such
behavior) "rcp, I love it when you **bulate like that."
2) (after Jon or Becky has attempted to misuse the word "blasphemy" in a
rcp-like manner) "Jon/Becky, are you trying to **bulate?"
3) (after a waiter has been driven to giggles by rcp's witty banter) "Man,
he has some serious **bulation going on."
note: replace ** with my last name.