littlestar

I am a Gauntlet Adventurer. I strive to improve my living conditions by hoarding gold, food, and sometimes keys and potions. I love adventure, fighting, and particularly winning - especially when there's a prize at stake. I occasionally get lost inside buildings and can't find the exit. I need food badly. What Video Game Character Are You?

it says if i'm not a gauntlet adventurer, i would be a mr. do. so i post the results to mr. do as well.

I am Mr Do. I am sedentary by nature, enjoying passive entertainment, eating when the mood takes me, and playing with my food. I try to avoid conflict, but when I'm angered, I can be a devil - if you force me to fight, I will crush you. With apples. What Video Game Character Are You?

Posted by littlestar at 05:13 PM | Permalink | Comments (1)

i think enough people seemed to be convinced that there is value in my blogging about this person, so that others may be able to find more about his true nature by googling him.

(i've deleted the links because they are now obsolete as he has already deleted them. maybe something caught up to him, i don't know)

and i don't actually know if my old roommate is still friends with him or not, but i would appreciate discretion and not talking about me in any way or form with him, if she is still talking to him. and no mentions of this blog. after all, i want his own writing to be a warning to whoever wants to know more about him. it would defeat the purpose if he decided to delete his entries.

Posted by littlestar at 08:21 PM | Permalink | Comments (5)

a few years back, one of my roommates had a very distasteful boyfriend. since they were trying to be friends after they broke up, i was exposed to him quite a few times, though not really enough times to care much about him either way initially. he just came off as a little fake.

over time, i've found from what other people casually said that he really disliked me. which didn't really matter to me--i just found it a curious thing since i'd only talked to him once in a while about things of no consequence.

by the time my roommate was moving out, i disliked him. he was just truly detestable. he was a hypocrite. he was chauvanistic and manipulative. he was full of himself. he never thought he'd done anything wrong. and even though he'd made his "friend", my roommate, cry several times through various forms of mistreatment, he still thought that he was being a good person and friend. he also didn't bathe near frequent enough.

i'd chanced on his blog around sometime, and he'd called my roommate a bitch for basically not putting him on top priority, daring to have dinner with me and watching a video after. forgetting to call him back immediately. and apparently, i was also a bitch because i was advising my friend that he was mistreating her.

i think he's still under the mistaken impression that i'm the typical victimized fetishized asian girl. i paraphrase: "go wear your kimono and be a dragon lady for your yellow-fever boyfriend". most people who've met me probably wouldn't think i fit that bill (and it's a little funny, since i'm neither japanese nor chinese, so i don't really get the reference. is he saying that all asians are the same? *gasp*). and besides... little vicitimized asian girls don't kick said ass out of their apartment and tell him that he's a chauvanistic pig that likes to posturize and pretend he's a great human being when he's really scum.

it probably makes him feel better about himself to think that the asian women don't like him because he's asian and they're being infantile in their "self-hate", rather than thinking that it's because women in general (asian ones included) know better than to take a bum deal like him: a fatass, sexist, racist, chauvanistic pig that never learns from his own mistakes.

when he ranted about me then, and again a year after, i was amused. i was actually feeling a little triumphant--i was still getting under his skin and bothering him after years of no contact.

now... rougly 2.5 years later... there's no point to revisiting his blog. he's still the worthless jackass he always was who still thinks of asians as something of a superior minority in the US that isn't getting enough credit. "our people" "our own" "our race" blah blah. he's a disgrace to peoplekind. and he still thinks that asian women discriminate against asian men because they're being self-hating. talk about denial.

if i'm a so called "dragon-lady", then i will slap you down, mash you up and throw you out any time of day, any day of year. after all, that's all you're good for--idle amusement and pity for the dim-witted and malicious.

Posted by littlestar at 10:07 AM | Permalink | Comments (9)

i did my first animation today: a bouncing ball.

apparently, it was pretty decent for the first go. it took about as long or longer to make it more "correct." so now i'm all excited and want to show it to my teacher to see if it's good enough or not. :)

Posted by littlestar at 12:54 AM | Permalink | Comments (7)

one of the many things i learned in japan:

the "teen titans" theme is sung by puffy amiyumi and not shonen knife. and apparently, puffy is very big in japan.

Posted by littlestar at 09:02 AM | Permalink

i returned from japan yesterday. it was a wonderful trip.

but now i have a week's worth of schoolwork to make up and i'm severely jet lagged, so maybe i'll update on the trip later. :)

Posted by littlestar at 10:16 PM | Permalink | Comments (1)

it's the first time any hair stylist has actually LIKED my hair. :)

it was great. it's rare to have a hair stylist be able to be comfortable with free reins. so i actually did have a rough idea of what i wanted.... but when i told her i was comfortable with all hair lengths and just wanted it short but not razored, i could hear the little gears in her head snap in and figure out a haircut that was short, edgy and interesting. :)

the only bad thing is that she will be moving and leaving the salon in about two months. she says i should come by for a cut then. she was really excited about working with me, someone who would let the stylist do anything and didn't want a conventional haircut.

she asked me for my info so that she could call me up as a model later. free haircut. i would only have to worry about driving up to folsom. :P :) she even offered to pay for my gas. :)

Posted by littlestar at 02:27 PM | Permalink | Comments (4)

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Posted by littlestar at 10:30 AM | Permalink | Comments (6)

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Posted by littlestar at 08:01 PM | Permalink

Images

parakkum likes to take pictures. usually it's of me or interesting things around us. i think these are mostly pictures of me. :P

but there's a cute picture of us from his sister's wedding, too. :)

Posted by littlestar at 10:10 AM | Permalink

so i also found out that that friend of mine is now dating my cousin.

this worries me since i think she's a loony. i can only hope that she won't treat my friend that way, though. i mean, it's not really my position to tell him about her issues, right? that sounds like something she should be telling him about.

besides, i have some faith that she will treat him differently, since he's her boyfriend and she's always been one of those girls that are cute little girlfriends to who they're dating.

let's just hope that she's only psychotic with me.

i also hope that he doesn't feel like he's responsible to make her happy. since, honestly, no one can make you happy other than you. even if she thinks otherwise a lot of the time.

if you have any suggestions, please leave comments.

kyung and i have a lot of weird connections.

we've known each other since 5th grade.

he was roommates with my cousin's first boyfriend.

i was reunited with some friends from high school because he was friends with my friend's sister-in-law. he'd attended my friend's wedding, while i hadn't even known that she'd gotten married.

when my friend decided to get a full-time job for a while.... it turns out that she got a job at kyung's dad's company.

and now... he's dating my cousin.

all i told him was to make sure that he takes care of himself and maintains good support group and hangs out with friends. and that it won't be a good idea to bring me up, seeing as how my cousin and i parted on not so good terms. that she was the worst of all my roommates and cemented the idea that i wouldn't have roommates anymore.

i had to deal with her family while they were going through familial issues. arguiing with her pig-headed brother and reassuring her worrying father who listened to the brother too much. i had to clean up after her when she was depressed and was yelled at for not being clean enough when she was strung up. she wanted me to not bring people over since she had the living room and found it distracting one semester, when in another semester she had her whole pledge class come over. she yelled about how she didn't think she knew parakkum enough for him to come over, but was ok with borrowing money from him before then when she needed it. she didn't want to take full responsibility for crashing my car, saying that she wouldn't have been driving it anyway if i hadn't asked her to drop me off. she'd threatened to move out after thinking that i wasn't being a good roommate since i wasn't doing the dishes fast enough, bringing people over and saying this had been going on for a while when it was only three weeks into the semester. started to yell at me in front of her friend who found the whole situation awkward and the next day, told me that she thought we should try to work out our issues since she'd calmed down and realized how hard it would be to find a new place three weeks into the semester. the prior sememster when she was feeling depressed and suicidal, she would rack up my cell phone bill to call me about everything and anything. when her dad died, i was taking care of her family until she flew down. while she stayed down and i was planning to move down to san jose, she would have me see her potential roommates and show them the place.

in the end, i moved out, didn't really try to keep up with her because everything was just too awkward and weird. all that time, i didn't get a single real apology from her. and maybe she was able to get that bad with me because i was related to her or something, i don't know. but knowing all this makes me worry for my friend.

i'd just assumed that i'd never have to deal with her again.

out of feeling concerned, i made the mistake of telling my mom about finding out that my cousin had 1) changed her name and 2) is dating my friend.

the response:
1) why would she change the name her dad chose for her? (my uncle passed away last year, and no, that's not why she was loony. she was so before then.)
2) at least she's dating korean.

that just pissed me off.

Posted by littlestar at 08:30 AM | Permalink

for whatever reason, i finally went to see my friend's blog today.

he's pretty much the first person i knew to have a blog. the nice looking kinds with high quality backgrounds and using actual code beyond simple html.

he also introduced me to the nice feeling of having a v8 engine rumble as you ride in it. :)

kertong

he's pretty much one of the few korean guys i found very cool. :) that's saying a lot.

(as a side, i did actually talk to him online. i didn't just read his blog and forget about him again. :))

Posted by littlestar at 12:21 AM | Permalink | Comments (1)

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except that i never game. nor stay up that late. not online anyway :)

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doesn't this mean that i'm screwed? :)
hey, i said i wanted to be an artist. never said anything about being tortured. :)

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