humbling
remember the part about some people that i just feel blessed to have met and inspired by? well...
yeah. i don't want to put my friend on the spot, so i'll keep this simple (and without mentioning any names). whether she's known it or not, she's been greatly influential in my life.
i'm not openly spiritual (not as much as i am in my head, really) but with her, i feel like she pops up just the right times, as though god could tell that i was digging a hole for myself or that i wasn't going to listen to what he had to say or i'm so angry with him that i can't see straight and sends her over in various forms (conversations, invites to church/small group, coffee, etc) to remind me/comfort me/give me strength/encouragement.
she reminds me of how someone can long for him/she/alpha+omega/etc. that even though things aren't easy or going my way, that he's still there. and that things aren't that bad. that christians aren't just screwing up. that life isn't just about how i feel day to day.
that god still loves me.
her daily efforts and different perspectives/outlooks, whether at her school, or with her faith, or with her family... humbles me. and man, i'm a pretty arrogant snot, so it's a good thing, too. :)
honestly, she's probably one of the reasons why god and i are still on speaking terms. i learn a lot by her example, even though i'm too lame to tell her in person (you're not too embarrassed, are you? course, given how obscure i've been, i wonder if she's too humble to know i'm writing about her).
i feel blessed to have met her, to have access to her blog (which i'm not going to post so that she doesn't have to move to another one again) and thankful for how she inspires courage, patience, forgiveness, and compassion in me.
thanks, krapgirl (you know who you are now, right? not a nickname i've used for you, but i've never really called you by anything other than your name. :P)