littlestar

christine likes to watch happy shows. ex:

dharma & greg
boy meets world
kimpossible
proud family
lizzie maguire (sp?, i have a 10 year old sister)
buffy (though not so happy lately)

if you looked at my dvd collection, by and large, most of the ones i own are comedies, romantic comedies, or drama with some humor.

life is too sad without humor. even in the worst of times, things are more bearable when you laugh or smile.

so i have a tendency to gravitate towards these sappy, lessons of life, things turn out well shows.

and definitely, some of these episodes will deal with hard, painful issues. i actually find that a blessing. i can learn from their mistakes without making my own. and though their words are carefully put together by highly trained writers, they give me a glimpse of how relationships between people can be.

i know that my communication with my parents leave room for much improvement. and really, i'm not going to constantly put myself out for them to trample on until they learn what communication actually means.

but it comforts me to know that it is actually possible for people to learn to be with each other, accept each other and love each other.

for instance.... whenever me and my bf have problems due to our different styles of communication and approach to life and people, it gives me great comfort to watch dharma and greg interact. because they sort of represent some of the issues that parakkum and i have to deal with. in some ways i'm the dharma and in other ways i'm greg. (he's more greg than i am)

but regardless of whatever seemingly insurmountable issue they have to tackle, they seem to do it. their love survives. they grow in their love and change together.

it's a beautiful sight. it inspires and emboldens me.

for most of my life books, touching movies and tv shows have played a huge role in the person that i want to become. anyone who's known me for a while knows that i'm a tremendous bibliophile.

and i realized... that a lot of my ideals and mentors come from the characters i've read when i was younger. the idea of going down an unconventional path, standing up for your own beliefs, challenging traditions that don't seem to make sense.... these were all things that were acceptable and encouraged in the books i've read.

the characters weren't encouraged by other characters. the encouragement, inspiration, reason behind taking this risk comes from the potential happiness.

and even if it doesn't work out, you have tried at something that really matters to you. and you've probably learned some invaluable lessons, you know?

i suppose this is why i try to do things that seem difficult to me and why i have a hard time doing pretty easy things that i have no interest in.

anyway... i think i'm starting to ramble. too tired. only got 4 hours of sleep last night. i can't do that anymore. i must be growing up or something.