February 10, 2004

Too many thoughts

Don't you hate it when you have too many thoughts in your head? What did this mean? What did that mean? If I'd said that differently, what would have happened? I wonder what s/he is thinking? Should I say this or that? Should I say anything? What are the possible outcomes - good/bad/indifferent, and is it worth finding out? Why the hell won't my brain shut up?

They all chase around in my head until I feel like I'm spinning down, like a top running out of steam and about to topple over. This may be because I feel like crap (it's either allergies or the mother of all colds). It came up really suddenly (i.e. I was fine last night and this morning I woke up feeling like complete crap). This may also be because I am in a spin of my own making. I'll get out of it, and probably sooner rather than later, but sometimes you just need to think/feel the things you need to in order to let go.

Posted by cshell at February 10, 2004 10:39 PM