Random thoughts - I've (for the moment) rid the interior of my house of any visible signs of spiders and their webs. I'm sure my karmic debt is very high at the moment considering the number of spiders that I killed, but something in my just snapped, and caused me to run around all the corners of my house with the vacuum sucking up all the webs and spiders.
Chai is a good thing. I probably shouldn't be having this monstrous cuppa right now, but given that I don't seem to be able to sleep anyway, maybe I'll get some reading/writing/bill-paying/stressing/angsting, etc. done.
I still really love my Tivo and the fact that I can record the sappy romantic movies that I like and leave them on there for as long as I please. Yes, I could merely buy the movies, but for some reason owning the movies means I never watch them (maybe because I'd have to leave the couch to put them in the DVD player), but having them on the Tivo at my fingertips means that I DO watch them. Over and over. Whenever I want.
One of the few times I wish I had a roommate is when I need help deciding on what to wear. Ideally you need a girl's opinion, but in a pinch a guy would do. Nah, strike that. Guys have no idea of the subtleties and nuances about picking the perfect outfit. Sexy but not slutty. Clingy but doesn't show off bad bulges. Shoes that are sexy but you can walk several blocks in them.
I remember now why I hate being taken care of. It's because it feels good. And it sucks when it goes away. So it's easier to simply count on yourself. If that means you have to do without, then so be it. This is not to say that I ENJOY doing without. I miss lots of things. I miss getting my neck and shoulders rubbed when I feel like crap. And I'd love for someone to bring me, unbidden, a treat of any sort. I'd love to have someone to call when I'm sick to just come over and take care of me. I miss having someone to just listen when I need to vent. I miss having someone tell me it'll be ok, even when we both know it won't. I'd love for someone to help me with the guy stuff (oil changes, cleaning the gutters, moving heavy stuff, opening a jar). Mostly I miss knowing that there's someone there who cares for me warts and all.
Mmm... caffeine... Although I'm a lightweight in our company (it's hard to compete with engineering folks), someone was impressed that I was on my second Diet Coke by 10:30... Dude, that's not that much... consider 2 cups of coffee in a similar timeframe. Geez. How do YOU function at work without massive caffeine intake? Oh, and I still don't understand the concept of diet/caffeine free drinks. Drink water dammit!
Posted by cshell at October 15, 2003 09:26 PM