How do you go about becoming the person you're supposed to be? I'm pretty sure that the person I am now is ok - sometimes cool, sometimes a pain in the ass, etc. - but I know there's more - there's someone incredible in there if I can dig her out of the bullshit, limited thinking, stifled by fear person that there is now. Somewhere there's a doin' something in spite of her fear, sexy in her own skin, emotionally abundant, kickin' ass and takin' names kinda person in there. Someone who should be doing stuff she's not doing now (but needs to find the stuff).
I think I got off course somewhere along the line (if there even is a course - I think that changes constantly), but I'm pretty sure there's stuff that needs to change. Not in a bad way (i.e. not because I hate some aspect of myself), but in a growth sort of way. I think the time off will be a good time to think about that stuff, slough off some of the crap and start growing a new skin.
Posted by cshell at July 18, 2003 01:33 PM