Ever get a piece of information that takes your breath away - literally? This has happened a couple of times over the last month or so. The first time was when I found out my former boss was leaving the company. My brain sorta got stuck - I didn't know what to think, couldn't figure out to ask any questions, etc. The funny thing is the person telling me assumed I already knew, so it was even more surreal. Now, it didn't turn out to be a bad/stressful thing, but it was weirder that I sorta vapor locked on it for a bit.
I found out something else today, and my first response was to stop breathing. I didn't even realize I'd done it until I had a weird sensation and started breathing again. (Then again the fact that I seem to be having an asthmatic day isn't helping - but I hate using my inhaler because it makes me jittery.) It was weird - even my thoughts went still, I didn't even have any internal dialog going. I know it's the key piece of information I've been looking for, but I don't even know how to process it. But maybe it means I can let go and move on?
Posted by cshell at July 16, 2003 08:21 PM