Interesting ponderance: am watching Lord of the Rings (yet again) because it's on cable and it's a lovely noise and occasional eye-candy while I'm doing other stuff. At the part where what's his name says "it's been long since we had any hope" I was wondering about hope. It's something you have to foster to keep in your heart and keep alive, but how do you keep it when everything around you points to despair? It hurts more to be hopeful and have that constantly dashed than to merely give in to despair, grieve and move on. But the thing with hope is that in some way you can't really kill it - it's almost as if it's outside of you, because it's always there - even if you rationally know that whatever you're hoping for is not going to happen.
Random tangent - Viggo Mortensen. How fucked up that a woman of my age is drooling over him like a love-sick 14 year old? The fact that I LOVE the fact that he writes poetry. And OH MY GOD (imagine this coming from a hyper 12 year-old girl's high pitched squeal), his hands... I have such a secret fantasy thing about hands... mmmm.... (wipe drool from chin), and his are swoon-worthy. Sigh...
Posted by cshell at July 12, 2003 01:00 PM
